After a rather shitty night of being belittled and berated (unjustifiably, I might add) by the one I love, I arrived at work today only to find out it would be my last day there. At least for a while. Though they love my work and assert that I am a great fit, the current negligible workload doesn’t warrant my services. I don’t blame them and definitely saw this coming, as I haven’t done much in the past few weeks (see: last post). Alas, such are the perils of a freelancing nobody.
Anyway, the point of this isn’t to piss and moan about my shitty life, but rather to acknowledge the acutely poignant playlist my iPod delivered on my commute home, just after getting the bad news. On shuffle, my little machine somehow dispatched apt song title after song title, inflicting painful blows with each new track. Have my little guy and I spent so much time together that we’ve acclimatized, much like women living in close quarters whose menstrual cycles begin to parallel each other? Is he so attuned to me and my needs that he comes ready with anticipatory playlists to reflect my mood?
Or is this something much more sinister? Is my tiny black rectangle spying on me, Big Brother-style?
You be the judge.
1. Song for the Dumped – Ben Folds Five
(self-explanatory)
2. The Debt Collector – Blur
(no doubt foreshadowing my upcoming financial woes)
3. In the Lost and Found – Elliott Smith
(where I evidently belong)
4. Trampled Under Foot – Led Zeppelin
(precisely how I feel)
5. Zero – Smashing Pumpkins
(applicable twice over: emotionally and financially)
6. Catch Me Now I’m Falling – The Kinks
(getting ridiculous at this point, no?)
7. Black Waves/Bad Vibrations – Arcade Fire
(maybe not the most relevant, but I’m certainly not feeling any good vibrations)
8. Had to Cry Today – Blind Faith
(a fitting ending for my commute, and if I hadn’t cried yet by this point, surely I would now)
I’ve always maintained that my iPod resembles the monolith from 2001 — now I can’t help but wonder what clairvoyant and mind-bending powers it really might have …
